Lessons, Tests and Buckets Galore…
Today is the day for love! I LOVE, love. Not because I’ve never been hurt or let down. But because being hurt hasn’t changed me.
Let me explain…
I read a lot. And I was raised in the Christian Church so my faith is my foundation, even when I eff up - actually, mostly because I eff up. With all the information and beliefs that have been rammed into my brain over the years, this one simple nugget has always stuck with me:
Love isn’t so much about the Who/What/When/Where/Why of it all. I think its about keeping the faith and belief that its all that matters. There isn’t a person alive who hasn’t been let down in love. After some distance from the hurt, you realize it wasn’t the love that hurt you, but the lack of love the other person or yourself had. And there lies the key..
I think love is this thing we are created with, and the test is to go out into the world and experience adventures, learn lessons, fall down and get back up -over and over… Without letting the foundation of who we are, LOVE, get tainted.
It’s hard as hell to trust again after being betrayed. It’s scary and a good portion of folks shut down and refuse. Fail. I think we are put here with this big ass bucket of light. I think our “mission” is to spread as much of it as we possibly can. Regardless of what we encounter. There is dark, tons of it. But do we take it in, give away our light for it, or surrender to it completely? Fail. I think the Pearly Gates are actually a big ass scale. And you throw your two buckets of light and dark up there and see which one has more. Did you give more light, or did you take in more dark? <—— if you’re just tuning in, I’m not talking about chicken.
The pain, hurt, dissapointment is inevitable. It’s the test. We were never promised a cake walk. What better way to see what your foundation is, then to test it.
I have literally a million reasons to HATE love. We all do. Dad never hugged us or Mom worked too much.. There are endless reasons to give up, throw in the towel, sew up my vagina and live in a closet. But I couldn’t if I wanted to. Love is all there is. It’s the thing people talk about on their death beds, and its the thing that keeps us going in tough times.
So, Hallmark Holiday or not, I’m gonna love the shit outta people today :-D
Find a reason to LOVE today. It’s why we are here, my friend.
XoXo CM
